Aaa...
Wednesday Special arrives,
Today's topic is:
The World Is Spinning and So I Am
Easy to be understood is it not?
When the worild is spinning that also mean the world is getting some changes,
Even human,
Flora and fauna,
The sea, land and mountain,
The sky, air, water, earth,
Everything...
Firstly,
I have to mumble about myself,
I am getting old....
Uwaahahaa~
I am still single,
I am still plum and have an average body,
I am still not pretty,
I am still lacking of something,
I am still studying,
I am still having less friends,
I am still who and what I was years ago.
What the meaning of;
'I have changed' ?
To be really frank,
I fucking hate those people who said that.
Example is here,
Firstly,
Remember I am very honest,
The name is ... I forgot but something with K and Wai,
A chinese student whom I knew when I was Form 3,
In 3 Ikhlas,
Fuck that name,
Everyone is shithead in that stupid class,
This K.Wai guy was a band player, he played the huge drum which made him look far more idiot than I know,
He practiced piano and he was very tall plus LONG,
LONG legs, arms, body and I do not about his dick, should be short perhaps.
He once talked to me when I finally reached Form 4,
4 Ceria, was not a superior class or a hippy-yappy class,
Fuck that name again,
He commented that I have changed,
He said changed by means my personalities, attitudes and actions,
Hell you, Asshat,
Like you really do know me,
Fuck that,
Even I also do not know all of myself,
Second case,
This is the most recent,
Before that I have to tell about my history again,
Patience,
I was not a damn good student and was rebellious,
This happened when I was in Form 3 - 4 period,
Yes, I mixed with gangsters who were all assholes and brainless by calling them fucking selves 'Gangsters',
Laugh my ass off.
Fearing policemen and doing illegal stuffs like sucking drugs, selling illegal CDs & DVDs and eceteras,
I bet they are still the same,
There was an Indian guy who speaks Chinese, Malay & English,
Titled as a SMART ASS,
Well he was nice and treated me well,
I was a NOT talkative person and a silencer or a gril at the corner type,
No bodies pay any attentions to me at all,
Do not say about having a bastard jerk ex-bf,
*Pukes* *Spits*
This Indian he once confessed to me but of course I rejected,
If we were to be couple,
The Sea will be the Land, The Land will be the Sea,
I cannot take that risk to date a Malaysian Black Man,
Plus I do not like him at all, just a normal fucking gangster as a friend...
Please know your position first before speaking huh?
Yes, I was a fucking silly teenager.
I cut off the relatonship or friendship or gangstership with these people very soon in the end of 2005,
Now, 2008,
Bless me huh?
That idiot Indian sms'ed me and asking for a tea with me,
I am not like SOMEONE ELSE who can straight go out and take the invitation form any guys,
Silly,
Fucking Silly,
This Idian wanted to meet me and he wanted to court me AGAIN?
Scam Off,
Dirty old man,
He then asked;
"You are not that cruel, aren't you?"
HELL YES I AM, FUCK OFF,
He said I have changed just because I frankly rejected his offer,
HA.HA.HA.HA.HA.
SAME, same type of idiot,
LIKE HELL HE KNOWS ME,
I do not know him at all,
Other than his spoken languages or name,
FUCKING DICKHEAD.
I am pissed,
Damn pissed!
World is definitely upgrading,
I am upgrading NOT changing.
Can the World change its shape?
HELL NO.
Can I change my gender then?
NO. FUCKING NO!
People are improving not changing!
Lately I feel that I do not know more,
About friends, family and stuffs,
What is right or wrong,
I am already confused,
I become very ego-ish, emotional and unfriendly and impudent,
I do not know how to communicate and being friendly anymore,
Maybe I did really 'changed'?
Downgraded?
I do not know how to face the people and the World,
I am becoming a coward and afraid of being with people,
Because I do not how to live properly with them,
Not that I fear them,
I can feel the friends around me are disappearing,
Not that I care much,
What I care most is my pride and existance,
I hate it when I asked people to hang out and they said they were busy,
Well time when I was busy I also did shown up,
Having relatives or family dinner is okay,
Having exam is okay,
Planning to be with bf also okay,
But when I found out all of those are lies to not coming out,
While they were actually wondering outside with others and I knew it,
Then I will say I hate it. Very. Much.
Just say you do not wish to hang out with me then I will never disturb you again,
Just like I dislike to force myself to mix with other people,
I would not pretend like I am a know-all-people or a mixable type,
I am very rude to people until I could not control it and evey time I just blow off everything,
I am cold huh? Cruel huh? Selfish huh?
The weather is changing,
Rain keep falling and it seems sad,
Neverending sadness,
People are dying in every country or place,
There are newborn babies at the same time too,
Mourning, Celebrating,
Crying, Laughing,
This is what?
Life-cycle?
Yea, I bet I can call it by that,
What bring me happiness now is money, KAT-TUN and what?
With money I can eat every japanese fine dining restaurant,
I can buy many things for myself and family,
I can even travel and visit any places,
I can build homes for the homeless people,
I can buy KAT-TUN stuffs,
I can live my life to its fullness,
Seems like I am getting more materialistic,
Maa...
People get to become like that when they are drowning in thoughts,
Maybe I am just a lonely person,
I prefer writing than chattering sometimes,
I can keep saying 'fucking fuck bastards asshats' every time I want to.
I can even say BU-SH is a fucking nice person,
He took all the blame because he did all the bad stuffs which people hope to get it done but doesn't wish to do it themselves,
I can also comment that Mareshia is a fucking islamic country,
Giving those useless special treatments which wastes citizens' money continuously to the fucking jerks and bitches,
Need to go off now,
I got far off from the topic again...
Anyhow,
These, what I wrote are all bullshits,
No offend.
Ijyou..
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